The voices in my head

Despite the unpopular belief,we are allowed to experience mixed reactions in various situations.we can be happy yet slightly bothered or bothered yet completely content.some times the rain falls while the sun is out ,but hey,does it stop you from enjoying the colors of the rainbow?

Burdened with a problem not knowing who to turn to? She cries herself to sleep every night,she doesn’t want to be there anymore,she’s part of a land that is full of hurt,frustrations and troubled minds.

There’s an alien glued to her back and chewing through her heart,dreams and bank account..she knows what to do but afraid all it might bring her is more pain, it kills her not physically but emotionally.she tries to reach out but her hands are full,full of fear,full of shame and suicidal thoughts.

It chokes her that she has no choice but to reach out,the situation is beyond her capability.

instead of living in frustration wondering what could possibly go wrong,she prays for courage,of course we all need the support we can get,she is ready to tackle whatever is thrown her way and she’s open to the possibilities that exist.

“Sometimes things might not work out as we anticipated but allowing yourself to find meaning and joy out of these situations does”she is reminded by the bundle of joy she has just received

WHICH OF THIS EPITAPHS WOULD YOU PREFER : “Hurried,Worried,and Buried” or “Loved,Laughed,and Left a Legacy”

Life is a sum of what brightens your mood,what makes your heart skip a bit or two,what makes your eyes pop out and brighten up,Its a sum of the things that bring you disappointment and chaos, it’s simply a mixture of joy and grief.

Just like an artist decides what brush is best for a specific painting,what paint goes well with a specific piece of art,and what two colors might look great together,that’s how much control we have over our own lives.

To some life is about the type of car you possses,the latest trends on the internet,what is considered cool by society.Some of us would even go out of our ways to secure some of this designer belts and shoes and all that,just to be accepted and not be called ancestral but the thing is,is that what life is all about? Are you really happy with yourself?Are you really living?

Get busy living or get busy dying ~Stephen king~

You might want to live a life where you choose to spread love and laughter with the people around ,a life where you are true to yourself and the people around you,You might not be aware,but, genuiness is the ultimate personal power.

If at all you choose to live a rushed life,where you worry about what they think and not what you believe in,then,Are you even alive?For you to be alive you have to live for you and not them.

Honestly speaking, who would want to be pronounced dead from a life you hadn’t even lived!?

FROM THE OUTSIDE LOOKING IN, ITS HARD TO UNDERSTAND .FROM THE INSIDE LOOKING OUT ITS HARD TO EXPLAIN .

I found a friend in a ‘stranger’,I know we all have,but mine is sent from heaven , “it’s okay not to be okay” he says to me every time I vent to him.He made it easier to talk about my emotions and boldly share my insecurities with,and without adding filters I would openly share about my past,fears,strengths and what life felt like ,He felt perfect,but as for human nature everyone has their demons to battle with I can’t be the only one,and I thank God for him. Finally opening up to someone who didn’t seem bored by the fact I am flawed and not perfect.I have learned to trust him and confined in him ,he might be the only person that I wholly trust in the world. I would ,I have and I will continue to bare myself truly naked in soul and in mind to,I just pray he doesn’t get the vibe I’m the girl to cry wolf.

I was going to write to you and let you know how you make me feel sadly the words seem to disappear and all am left with is ‘you’

I won’t lie,but am not sure if that’s a good or bad thing should ‘you’ be enough to measure up the Joy you bring to my life?

Should ‘you’ be enough to explain How I would be up all night just to catch a conversation with you?

Should ‘you’ be enough to explain why am safe in your hands?

Should ‘you’ be enough reason to make my smile brighten the darkest night?

Should ‘you’ be enough to explain why am with you and not them?

Tell me honestly should ‘you’ be enough to make the world colorful again?

Should ‘you’ be enough reason to finally let my guard down and demons free?

Should ‘you’ be the reason am willing to try this love thing?

Honestly am not sure why but all I could think of was ‘you’

‘Do you still write?’they asked,

In my head…there is a lot I can talk about,a lot I could write about,but am scared to put it out there afraid they might get to interact with my thoughts and finally get a chance to share their unpopular opinion,afraid to show how vulnerable I am,afraid to un mask what I really feel.

“No I don’t but I’ll let you know as soon as am back at it.”I reply with a crooked smile

Thanks for joining me!

Good company in a journey makes the way seem shorter. — Izaak Walton