Nalia.

Have you ever thought
of the effect you leave on people
once you hurt them?Well,
pain was so foreign to me
before I met you.
But now it’s something that’s part of me.I have cried myself to sleep
so many times.
Prayed, even.
I, who didn’t know how to pray,
could barely recite the Lord’s Prayer to the end.I was left with no one else
but God and I.
And if I’m being honest,
I wasn’t happy with Him not one bit.
I wanted Him to take away the pain
because I didn’t know what to do with it.
I still don’t.It breaks my heart
Grieving a robot, lol.
They warned us about robots,
but they didn’t tell us
they’d be breaking hearts.I guess I have to have tough skin.But no.
You know why I’m actually mad at God?
The only time He finally let me love,
I fell in love with one
that won’t let me love him.A widow,
but my love is alive
I’m in  lovee with a man with no emotions,
and won’t even talk to me.